Two By Two

River wearing a 3-6 month outfit for the first time... it is still a bit big on him but it fits.. *sniff* the blanket in the background was made by his grandma Jen *my mom's girlfriend*

River and his "girlfriend" Makaylee this weekend when we visited TN.. he looks less than thrilled because she had just backhanded him :)

I tried so hard to get him to have a paci.. he apparently had other plans...

So we have been using White Cloud diapers since we decided to stop cloth diapering because the kiddo wouldn't stand for it any more. Well he JUST got into size 2 like last week.. worked great.. until today!

I had my depo appointment this morning and while we were there Doug was holding River so that he was facing me while Doug was standing.. suddenly my hand it being sprinkled with warm liquid.. I instantly knew what it was.. Doug said it was drool.. it wasn't.. UGHHHH the lining of the diaper had exploded.. so we changed him.. figured it was a bad diaper went on our way.. we go out for dinner after stopping at Blockbuster.. I'm holding River while Doug goes to get some dessert.. suddenly my shirt is SOAKED.. yep he peed on me.. so my pants and shirt were both wet with pee.. we left and went straight to Wally World to get Huggies.. hopefully they work better.. stupid diapers.

River thought it was funny at any rate

I hope everyone had a good Memorial Weekend :) Doug and I had a fabulous one..

We decided to go up to TN for the long weekend and see our friends that are up there.. or at least as many of them as we could. We drove up there Thursday night and got there around 3 am Friday morning. We stayed with a friend of ours from when we were working at Caremark. She has a daughter who is only 5 weeks younger than River named Makaylee.

Friday we went into Knoxville and saw a friend of ours from ACN and then we drove over to our old apartment complex to see the ladies that work there. The manager was out of town for her birthday but the other lady was there.. She is due June 10th with her second little boy :) YAY!!! Then we started back toward Sweetwater where we were staying and stopped by in LC to see slavezoe for a little bit.

On Saturday we spent the morning around the house and then went to Temple that night :) It was WONDERFUL although apparently we missed the real commotion the night before when Blue Cats had a Masquarade Ball so alot of people didn't come out to Temple. We only stayed out for a few hours because our friend was at home alone with River and Makaylee. We got home about 12:30 and I had a very "interesting" night with my friend :)

Sunday we spent the day around the house and then about noon we drove into Knoxville after saying goodbye to Makaylee and our friend we stopped by and saw Abby before she had to be at work and then we went over to the Freaky Seekers and had a cook out :) We ended up heading home about 7 and got here about 4:30 in the morning.. *yawn*

River did beautifully in the car.. he slept the entire way home and then slept until 10am.. he slept until 9:45 this morning and he is miserable.. I think his teeth are really bothering him :( My poor little boy.

He did it!!!!! He did it!!!!

River rolled over from his back to belly this morning.. and now he will NOT stay on his back.. I put him on his back to play with his activity mat thing and he flipped himself over and got mad.. so i flipped him back and he flipped himself back over.. he's done it 5 times so far this morning!!! WOOOO HOOOO!!!! He's getting so big!!! He can now officially roll both ways!!! YAY!!!!!

I am one proud momma!!!

It is 1:18 in the morning and I can't sleep.. the only thing I can figure is that this is a side effect of being on the Lithium. I used to have insomnia when I was in high school and I was on Lithium.. it got so bad they had to give me something to help me sleep. I don't know if this is the beginning of a manic swing but it sure would go to suit as I've been in a depression swing for months. BLAH I hate bi-polar. I took a Darvocet for lack of anything else to help make me sleepy.. we'll see if it even makes a dent. I really need like 4-5 hours of sleep before the baby gets up or it's going to be an extremely long and unpleasant day. I manged to fall asleep for about a half hour earlier and had somer f**ked up dream. I guess my father coming down next month to see me and Doug and the baby is really screwing with my head..

The last time I saw my dad he was bring Tina and I furniture for our new apartment here in Florida.. I was 18. So that was what 4 years ago? Hell the last time I talked to my dad until recently was when I was living in NC with Persia the first time I lived with her.. that was 3 years ago. And now he wants to come see me with his older sister Donna whom I haven't seen since I was about 11. I appreciate that he feels like shit for completely turning his back on his kids when he remarried and that now that it didn't work out (he and the new wife are getting a divorce) he wants to be dad again.. but ughhhhhh. I played nice and sent him a few pictures of River so he can see what his grandson looks like.

Doug called in yesterday to try and go out looking for another job with a different company.. preferrably one that will schedule him hours and actually stick to that schedule. The first place we stopped at was only hiring for people in Ponte Vedra and Jax Beach which is WAY too far for him to commute every day. The other was just flat out not hiring. Apparently they lost one of their accounts that was giving 10 people a post so now they are scrounging to find those people posts and aren't taking anymore. We did find out that there is a company here in Orange Park that posts solely in Clay County (the County we live in) but when we stopped by the HR woman gave him an application but said the area manger who knows what they are hiring for had left the for the day. So he's going to fill out the application when he is at work today and call around to other places if that one doesn't work out and see what's available etc.. If he can find another company to take a post with he is going to stop working the company he has and take about a week so we can go up to NC to visit my mother and her girlfriend and then go over to TN to see everyone.. I have no idea where we are going to stay while we are there. I really don't know if we can afford a hotel for a week. *sigh* I miss my friends there though. IF we can come up.. we are going to make sure we are there for a Saturday so we can go to Temple.. we NEED our Knox Goth scene.. we miss the freaks. However that leaves the problem of finding a babysitter Ahhhhhhhh.

Well let's see.. I have an appointment today at 3pm with a GP to see if I can get on medication in the interim before I can see a psychatrist.. either that or I'm going to lose the last little bit of sanity I have.

This weekend was pretty nice.. Saturday the 3 of us went to St. Augustine to look around the shops.. we couldn't stay too long because it was hotter than hell and the sun was shining and I didn't want munchkin man to get burned. We also picked him up a mirror toy from Babies R Us for the car so hopefully he'll stop being such a little brat in the car. He thinks he needs to be held 24/7, I beg to differ *shrug* Then Sunday we went to the flea market in the morning and Doug took me around Sunday evening to pick up a couple of applications.. we've decided that me getting a part time job might be a good idea. It looks like my best chance of getting one is the Shell station up the street.. they are desperately hiring and the girl gave me the manager's schedule for the next week LOL so I can come talk to her directly. With a part time job the extra money would be much needed and the adult interaction more often would be much appreciated. So we shall see.

River slept until 9am again today.. maybe it's a new schedule? I hope?? I think teething is taking so much out of him.. he is sleeping from 7:30-8:30 until 9-9:30 and then taking a nap from 11 until 12 and another nap at 3 until 5. Poor baby.. no teeth yet but I can feel like 6 of them..

I go tomorrow for an orientation at the mental health clinic and I also have my appointment for the depo shot. Oh the fun :)

Doug is at work.. he works 6 to 6 today.. another 6 hours to go, hopefully little man stays being good *crosses fingers* It will be really nice if Doug gets the hours he is supposed to (about 44 a week).. we need the money.

I finally got a call back from the mental health clinic... I go in for an orientation (general information about the clinic etc... ) on Tuesday at 10am and then I go back for my evaluation appointment on May 31st at 9am. When I go for the evaluation appointment they will set a game plan and the gentleman that I talked to said that because my bi-polar had previously been treated/maintained with medications that it would probably be a part of this plan too (Thank the Gods) but that that department sees about 1000 patients so there will probably be about a 30-45 day wait :(

Doug is going to see about getting switched to days or overnights so that we are both here in the evenings when River seems to hit demon baby mode. He is teething horribly and he's miserable and he lets the whole city know it with as loud as he cries :( Nothing seems to help.. other than the motrin but he can only have it once every 6 hours and it wears off after 3.. I tried to alternate with Tylonel but it doesn't help at all so I stopped. My poor baby.

We have also started looking into daycare for when I start school in July.. OMG is it expensive.. most of the places are about 120-160 full time a week.. we were going to try and move Doug's schedule so they baby would only need to be in daycare a few days a week but it doesn't seem like that would really save us too much money yet.. I'm going to call a local nanny/aupair service place that they have here and see what their rates are per diem or even per hour.. we might go that route.

River rolled over from his back to his belly yesterday!! WOO HOOO.. he only did it once though so I don't know if it was a fluke or if he actually did it. *shrug* He used to roll from his belly to his back and now he only does it occasionally.. I think he got bored with it. LOL He is finding his voice and getting much more vocal.. smiles alot (in the mornings anyway).. he giggles but we haven't gotten one of those wonderful belly laughs yet but he's trying to figure it out.. he smiles really wide and makes a really throaty noise but can't quite make the laugh appear.. hehe.

*rolls eyes*

He's teething... we're doing everything right.. nothing more we can do. She thinks it's possible they could come through in 2 or 3 days.. I doubt it.

He is 14 lbs 8 oz as of today.. he's in the 75%.. and other than teething, he's healthy.

Well we had a week or so of happy baby... and now that's over apparently..

River is teething.. BIG TIME. Thats the only explaination I can come up with for whats going on with him. He is drooling all over, he gums are swollen, he chews on whatever we give him in his mouth (as long as we hold if for him), he is really clingy and tired constantly. My poor little boy does NOT feel good :( He hasn't eaten much since 2:30.. I think I managed to get about 3 1/2 oz total in him from 2:30 until 7:30 when I put him in his crib and let him scream until he fell asleep (10 min) normally he would have had about 12 oz. We're givin him tylonel around the clock, teething tablets, and we're even giving him some stuff for his tummy incase all the saliva dripping back is hurting it (he's got a cough from that already). I don't know what else I can do for him.. poor thing.. He and I walked the floor for 2 hours today.. he just makes me want to rip my heart out to make him stop hurting :(

Doug has to work tomorrow so we got my gifts for Mother's Day today :)

We got a new car.. FINALLY.. it's a 2003 Kia Spectra. We actually got it REALLY cheap. WOOO HOOO. It'll definately come in handy with me starting school in a month and a half and Doug working.. now we don't have to ask Linda for the car.

The this evening Doug took me to get my first tattoo :) I LOVE it!!! Here is a picture....

River is 3 months old today! he's getting so big! We took him this morning to get his pictures taken. He did wonderful!