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Cheli On Friday, June 30, 2006

I know that I am probably going to jinx it but things are starting to look up for us.. YAY!

I got the official call from Concorde the other day with those wonderful words "You have been officially accepted to the LPN program " :) I have orientation at 1 pm on the 13th and the school starts full time on the 17th. I can't wait, I'm so excited. Kethery says that if I have any problems during the school I can call her for help. Jen says the same thing. :) YAY!!!!!!!! The only part that sucks... is having to wait.

Then Doug and I have been filling out application after application for Doug to get another job. When that ended up not yielding anything promising I asked him to call the security companies that he had already had contracts with to see if they had a post that he might be able to take, at least in the interim between now and finding something that worked for us better. Thursday he got 3 calls for an interviews. He went to an interview this morning at 9am and the offered him a job on the spot. A security post which he was hoping to be able to do. It is Monday through Thursday from 5pm until 3am. Which means that it will give me time to get home and him time to get to work and then him time to get home and me time to get to work. We won't really see each other much during those days but he has a 3 day weekend and I have the weekends off. And the weekends can be left open for overtime if we decided he wants it. YAY!!!!!

River is doing wonderful :) Getting so big.. *sniff* It's funny when I was pregnant I watched a bunch of those TLC or Discovery Health channels about birth and delivery and newborns etc.. and thought.. wow.. I can't wait until the baby gets here.. that seems so far away.. and now the kid is closing in on 5 months old and that stage seems so far away too. The last two days he had a jar of Butternut Squash each day.. He likes it.. I think? He makes a weird face when he gets it in his mouth but doesn't really spit it out and then as soon as he takes a bite he puts his thumb in his mouth and sucks for a minute or so and then looks for more. Does that mean he needs to suck in order to move the food back? Should we wait a while longer? *shrug* We are going to start Green Beans tomorrow I think. Maybe.. depending on how the kiddo is feeling. He's been a bit bratty the last few days. I want to change his carseat to a convertible car seat because he absolutely dispises his infant carrier because he wants to sit up like a big boy and the carseat makes it so he cant. I think with the convertible car seat he'll be upright a little more but still facing backwards like he is supposed to be.

We are going to a small little thing here in Orange Park for the 4th of July. Close enough to the house that if River completely freaks out during the show we can come home easy enough. Looking forward to it.

Still sleeping like crap. Don't know why. I have mood stabilizers that suck as mood stabilizers but are really good as a sleepy pill. LOL So I take about a half of those before bed and they knock me out for a good few hours. If I take a whole one I'm out for 12 hours.. so tempting to take a whole one. *yawn*

Cheli On Wednesday, June 28, 2006

We tried to start River on solids today.. or at least we gave him a chance. ROFL what a trip.. he loved the process.. liked the food.. but isn't quite ready for solids.. he still sticks his tounge out as soon as something is placed on it and tries the tongue thrust stuff.. he got it everywhere but he did eat some of it and made some wonderful faces. We're going to wait until 6 months I think before we give him anything else but I am considering this his first food :) here are some pictures

Cheli On Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Doug is out hunting for a job.. he has called me a few times with job applications that need to be done on line so I've done them for him.. I've done 5 this morning and 2 last night and he's done 3 or 4 so far this morning so hopefully SOMETHING will come back.. if we can get him a job it will make him feel so much better and make things much easy to figure out as far as daycare if we need it and everything else. If we do need daycare I'm not sure how we're going to pay for it unless Doug starts work really soon and we get a pay check before River starts daycare but I don't think that's going to happen. *sigh* stress stress stress. I have 20 days before school starts, need to get a little bit of supplies.. need to find a backpack to carry it all in. I'm excited but I'm nervous and I'm afraid we won't be able to figure out a way for this all to work and I won't be able to do it. So if everyone would send us some good thoughts so we can get him a job, it would be much appreciated.

River is doing well. Getting big.. he is trying so hard to crawl and just can't quite figure out the movements needed.. he'll get it soon though. Still no teeth but lots of drool. His new thing is to hang with mommy and daddy until he absolutely can't keep his eyes open anymore and then he'll go to bed and sleep until 10 the next morning LOL Definately gonna be a night owl like his parents :)

Cheli On Monday, June 26, 2006

Well I did it... I got my hair cut.. first time in.. 9 years? I got 9-10 inches taken off.. the lady said my hair would be classified as chemically damaged from all the dying over the years so I wasn't able to donate it but it feels SOOOOOOO much lighter..

I also got a call today from the nursing school.. FINALLY.. to set up a time for the final interview with the Dean of Admissions. I go Thursday at 1pm. If I get in the school starts in 3 weeks. :) Lots to do :)

Here is a picture of my dad, my aunt Donna, and River from Sunday when they were here...

Cheli On Sunday, June 25, 2006

Nothing like sleeping on the couch next to daddy for an afternoon nap :)

Except maybe trying to figure out how to fit the kitty in my mouth...

Cheli On Wednesday, June 21, 2006
I just got a call from the lady that owns the daycare we were going to put River in. She needs to reimburse us our deposit because she sold the daycare. The new owners are completely changing the staff. Every staff member there now is being fired. They are raising the price by 35 dollars a week. And they are taking everyone on the ready to enroll list and making them reapply. which means we don't have a spot afterall. I don't know what we're going to do now. I start school in less than 3 weeks if the interview goes well. Most daycares having a waiting list of 2-6 months. And we only have one car so I don't even know how we could juggle the shifts we are gone to make it so he didn't need daycare. I am so so so upset. Sorry for the vent
Cheli On Saturday, June 17, 2006

Sometime in the last few days it hit me how much I really love my son. I mean of course I've always loved him and knew I did but for months I just felt like I loved him because I knew I was supposed to love him.. Goddess that sounds horrible. I tried so hard not to be one of those women who had post partum depression that didn't acknowledge it for a long time. And I knew somewhere inside me that that's what it was/is. I am by no means over it, but it's getting better. And having River here every day really helps. Being able to pick him up and hold him and whisper I love you to him and take care of him..

But it hit me that I love him more than I have ever loved any other thing/person on this earth. He means everything to me. No matter how rough things are or are going to be.. just seeing him thrive. Seeing him growing stronger and seeing him happy. Picking him up and having him smile right at me with that big ol smile that I know it meant for me alone. Walking in to pick him up after his nap and saying Hi and him ceasing to cry because he knows I'm there. Those make up for all the hard times. Knowing that I am his mother. I am here forever. For him.. I never thought it was possible to be able to love someone this much that you've known for so little..and yet be the one to know them better than anyone else.